I have not had a very good holiday after losing our poor old boy during the first week of the holiday. Being the holiday has made it worse as I am home and the house has been so empty.Anyway I obviously have known due to age and health that the time was coming and always thought I would get another. I have been really upset still in tears most days but last week I started looking on the internet for puppies, thinking may be October half term would be a good time, thinking of a new puppy cheered me up and we have been thinking of a name for it. However looking on the internet they all have been too far away and somehow I think I was pleased as half of me thinks I'm being disloyal to my last one, I know it's ridiculous. Anyway today I have had an email from a breeder to say they will have puppies ready at the end of November. This has suddenly thrown me and I just wonder if I am doing the right thing. We had our last boy nearly 15 years ago when our youngest child was still at primary school now there are just the 2 of us with adult child temporarily ( I hope! ) back home. I only teach mornings so am home the rest of the time.The breed we will get will be the same as before a large very laid back lazy dog, well our other one was. I just wonder how people who may be in a similar position have found the puppy stage and the chewing and energy which could come as a shock to me. I do remember until our other one calmed down he could pull extremely strongly if he saw a cat the other side of the road and did once pull our 11 year old over . I do need to have a puppy and not a rescue dog as I would miss that lovely cute puppy stage. Going back to school next week I know I will come home and miss my afternoon walk, there are fields all round us but it doesn't seem right to me to walk without a dog.