I'm posting on here under a new username as people may guess who I am. I've been a frequent visitor to the forums over the last few months. Just been reading other people's posts, which have been a great comfort to me. I was signed off work in February (had been off work on and off since October). This was due to severe pain that could possibly be arthritis, doc still isn't really sure. I'd not been happy at work for a while, and was finding myself tearful and feeling like I was unable to cope. Whilst signed off with the pain I became very down and generally p****d off with everything. As I became ill, I had just met a new partner who was absolutely lovely. Doc wanted me to go on ADs as every time I saw him I was more tearful etc. I felt I shouldn't be so sad though with new man etc, so refused them. I made the decision to hand in my notice at work as worrying about it was making me feel much worse. Anyway my boyfriend's job is a really sociable one and as I've been feeling more and more down I've turned into a complete monster, accusing him of allsorts. He knows its not how I normally am and has said so. Anyway, things have been getting worse and worse and last night everything kind of exploded. Went to see him at work and basically had a real go at him and now he's ended it. We had been living together so I'm now packing my stuff to leave . Feel so rubbish and sorry for myself. Know I've been an idiot so don't need anyone to come on here and tell me that. Just feel in need of a little support/kind words.