Hi everyone, I hope you don't mind me asking for some advice, I'm not sure where else I can ask. I started a new job in September but, as a result of personal circumstances including infertility and divorce, I have been suffering from depression and recently my health has taken a real turn for the worse. My doctor had signed me off work since the beginning of December and, as yet, I am still suffering the effects of depression. I have started new tablets which the doctor hopes will be more effective than the citalopram I tried as this seemed to increase my anxiety. While I have been in this state, I have obviously felt tremendously guilty about leaving my class and letting the school down so soon after taking me on but I have just not been in any fit state to teach, I can't even drive at the moment as I feel so anxious and have been staying with my parents since they realised I wasn't taking any kind of care of myself. Sorry to ramble but I have been in touch with my head via email and text since being off and they have now said I am to attend a formal meeting with hr about my attendance and should come in for an informal chat first. They have also advised me to involve my Union although I don't know why. I have now realised my Union membership lapsed about six months ago and (stupidly!) I did nothing about it so I don't have a Union. What should I do? I feel utterly hopeless right now and can't see how I will ever be that confident woman who could teach a challenging class all day long ever again. My doctor feels I shouldn't make decisions about my future while I am so unwell but I don't think I've got many options now as I've let the school down so badly and I can't see any other school wanting to hire me with this on my record. I am sorry for the long post, it's taken me ages to type, it is so upsetting but I feel like I'm at the end of the road here and I really am going to lose everything.