Hi all, I am helpless and am in desperate need of some advice. I am an NQT at a school which is considered “outstanding” and seemed like it would be a perfect school to work in. During the interview the head teacher was rude but then later I got the call to say they loved me. I overlooked this and took the job. A couple months before starting I read reviews on the school, almost every single comment was about the head and how she was a bully and she bullied all the staff out. I was also told about her from other people- I was extremely scared but it was too late to look elsewhere by then. As me and (5 other nqts!!!) started at the school I very quickly realised that every single member of staff was terrified of the woman to say the least. “Don’t stand like that she doesn’t like it”, “don’t say this word she won’t like it” “don’t have this in here, she won’t like it”... it was shocking. The children were like robots, not even allowed to freely play during play times as they must play in a certain way and not make much noise (they’re kids!) The head of nqt seemed a nervous wreck herself being controlled by the head, she was overwhelming me with wanting to team teach and critisicing every single thing I did. Very soon I was feeling trapped, feeling like I’m failing at everything I am doing. The head teacher walked into my room this week and was observing every corner of my class. She walked over to my book corner which I had took a lot of time and effort creating. She went through all of my books begin to dumb them on the floor. She found some books for the younger years in my class (which was organised into draws in my class by the previous teacher). She told me to get rid of them and put them in reception. She had a go at me and nit picked every little thing but I listened and began to make those changes to my class. I intended to take the books to reception by the end of the day. She already been in my classroom before the end of the day and called me into her room. She screamed at me like a child. I am still traumatised! She said “if I order you to do something I expect it done straight away I am the head teacher. You are lazy everyone is working so hard for you and you are doing nothing, I will contact the head of nqt if this continues, you should be embarrassed.. get back to your room I’m giving you 30 mins to fix it” I was traumatized I sat on the floor and strayed crying uncontrollably I was shaking. Ever since I cannot sleep or eat properly. I have had a panic attack in school today and my legs are weak. I cannot seem to have energy. My heart is constantly racing and she is always waking in and out of my classroom. I cannot stay in this room. I am so scared of her and I cannot relax of get my mind of this. I want to leave but I don’t want this to impact my career as a teacher. I love teaching, it’s my passion, I got outstanding during my pgce but this has broke all of my confidence.