I started my NQT year in September and of course, as expected I have had all the wobbles necessary for the first year of my stress induced life (or so it seems). However, recently I have found myself thinking "am I in the wrong profession?". When I was training to become a teacher I loved every minute of this busy and stressful life style. Although, it was the hardest year of my life, I actually felt the rewards and formed some amazing bonds with both staff and children, which is something I have struggled with in my NQT year. I completed my PGCE in the Lake District in the North of England and trained in small schools with mixed year classes and the staff turn over was little to none each year. The children were polite and respectful and and wanted to please. I now live in East London and my view of teaching has dropped. I love where I live, I love the children and I love the school, but I can't help but think that I have made the wrong choice. I feel in a rut. I feel stuck and nothing that I am doing is good enough. I feel I rarely get complimented on what I am doing, but they are more than happy to call me out on what I am doing wrong. I have made amazing friends and I wouldn't swap that for the world. I am so lucky with the people I have around me. My class are incredibly sweet and I love teaching them! They respect me but I can't help but shake the feeling that they don't like me. They're not willing to secure that bond with me like the children from my PGCE. Maybe I am viewed different now I am a qualified teacher. Is it normal to feel this way? Should I be feeling this overwhelmed and lost in my career in my first year? I understand that my training and this year are incomparable because of the differences but I thought I would see the benefits of both. I don't. I want to small northern schools in the heart of London. I know this is not really a real conversation or question, but I just wanted to know if any other NQTs feel the same. Have you noticed a significant drop in enjoyment? Are you struggling? Appeal to my desperate cry for help and help a teacher out! I'm lost and lonely in the big L town!