I have suffered from depression on and off for a few years now and have been a teacher for 11 years. I first had a serious depression in 2007 following the birth of my son, I had six months off work, was in hospital and after that had a year and a half of psychotherapy. I had about 6 weeks off in 2008 and about 3 weeks off in 2009. In 2009 I reduced my working hours to 3 days a week. This year I have had 7 weeks off so far. Four of these are due to having the flu and a cough so bad that I couldn't speak and following on from this I have sunk into a deep depression. It is not my job that is causing it, although I feel so anxious at the moment I couldn't possibly do it. When I am well I am very good at my job and have recently passed UPS 2. Since my first bought of depression I have worked hard by giving up drinking alcohol, taking my medication and also exercising regularly - yet I feel that I am back where I started. Am sure my school will just think I am a liability and want to get rid of me. I feel very stressed about this and that I am letting down my family, am worried about paying the mortgage if I lose my job. I just feel like a waste of space.