Cutting a very long story short. I am a qualified teacher still trying to complete the NQT year. I started at a small village school (3 classes, 60 pupils) as TA, and have worked there (now becoming HLTA) and teaching French and Music through the whole school. We have had several bad experiences as a school, including very poor leadership which resulted in a recent OFSTED of requires improvement. We have also just federated with another local school, with the HT from the other school overseeing both schools. Any way that's the background, of which there was an awful lot more which resulted in very low esteem throughout. At the end of last term, out of the blue, I got told in a stand up conversation with the HT, that another member of staff ( who I had considered a good friend) was also becoming HLTA and so she was doing some of my HLTA hours and that she was bringing in an expert (a TA from the other school) in Early Years to cover some of my other hours. When I think back to those last few weeks I recall other members of staff being very vague in what they wanted me to teach and why certain other things were being done and said. I feel as though all these conversations and decisions were taking place behind my back and that I have been just tossed to the side after everything I've done. I appreciate that things have to be organised and strategies put in place but I really feel as though I do not count. I could understand if I had been given warnings about my teaching, ec, but I've had nothing. As far as I knew I was doing ok. I am feeling so low and do not want to go in each day. I have already gone down to part time. I also feel humiliated and upset that this all took place behind my back and none of my collegues gave any indication of what was happening. The person who has the other HLTA hours won't even speak to me now, I keep being asked about things in relaton to her post from other members of staff. I am just so gutted by it all and want to leave as soon as possible because I no longer feel a valued member of staff. I really don't think I want to stay in the teaching profession if this is what it's like all the time.