I'm an NQT who since September has been teaching in a Reception class. I had observations and passed them with no signs of failure and was just left to get on with things. An incident happened with my TA and has made me feel like I don't know what I'm doing. She was constantly questioning everything I was doing and since then she was moved away from me for that reason. SLT has since then been watching me by asking for planning in and doing random lesson observations and book looks. I feel like I'm not doing a good enough job for the children. They all seem happy in the environment but I'm not..My confidence levels are 0 and I feel like I've failed everyone. I'm worried about my delivery of phonics with the children and their writing progression. I was going of what I thought was right from university experience and research. I'm currently off on the sick but I'm worried to death about going back because I don't believe I can get these children where they need to be. I'm worried about my past mistakes and how to move forward. When I ask for help I feel like it's more of criticism feedback not constructive feedback. Can anyone recommend how to get myself feeling better and get my children where they need to be?