I’m sorry to be back on again but your advice is always needed and respected. Last July I was, for want of a better word , an i**** at a party and let out some alcohol fuelled anger as a colleague I had been having disagreements with , now the AH. I am told by the dr and psychologist it was a continuation of panic attacks I had been having for many months which had started as a result of a disagreement with the same colleague. Fast forward and after 6 weeks of being signed of with WRS , many trips to the Drs , medication and finally getting to see healthy minds , I have been back at work a half term ( great step you would think).I have apologised several times to the colleague and others that were round to witness it as I am genuinely sorry. But after coming straight back to a new role as inclusion manager (class based 3 and a half days) I feel like I am constantly being undermined and feel like a paper work monkey with no actual say. My class , who I was told by SLT are ‘admittedly difficult’ mean I am constantly stressed anyway with little support. I am meant to be the line manager for the TAs but a particular member of staff continually goes above my head when she does not agree with my decisions. (She is the best friend of the 1st colleague ). All class responsibilities , assessment planning marking etc have been left to me even on days when I am not in class because my partner is a long term supply and in fairness to him has been honest that he will not be doing any gap comments etc as he is not employed by the school. I’ve found myself working 7-11 everyday again (2-11 on sundays) and am coming home crying every day. Up next I have 2 observations on the 2 days I am in class , training courses , after school events and clubs , as well as lesson planning scrutinys (RAG) every week ( for everyone). I have always been graded good for observations but I worry now with my class this year being packed full of their own needs (1/3 SEN and major behaviour issues) and the bad atmosphere around the person who is observing me , that any of my lessons may be viewed differently. Additionally , performance management target above 60% ARE in a class working at least 1 year below ARE on average have made me Feel like I’ve failed before I’ve even started. It is increasingly difficult with anxiety and depression coupled with work place politics to have a ‘good day’. While I understand I am prone to distorted thinking ( counsellor term) , I think even any ‘normal’ person would be cracking. Do I look for somewhere new or do is suck it up ?