Hi there. I've been having a lot of issues with sickness, the underlying cause of which is often my depression and anxiety. I tend to catch something, then the anxiety of returning to work stretches what should be a day or two into a week. Earlier in the school year my school began the sickness and absence procedures which have been increased to the formal warning stage. I've contacted my union and my gp and even the teacher support line and am due to start counselling soon but can't help but feel like an utter failure. I feel like I'm letting down the people at work but when I get up to go to work (if I have slept which is becoming rarer) I have several panic attacks and sometimes am physically sick from it all. The last time I spoke to management they actually mentioned that I was letting people down and that we had several things happening in school I should be there for and that my absence was putting a massive strain on them. It's things I already thought, but hearing it out loud completely crippled me. I then had to be on the phone to my union and my gp and the teacher support line and after all of that I'm just so drained. I feel like I don't know what to do and after several years of teaching to what I was told was a high quality I'm now not sure if it's something I can even stay in. I guess I just need help and advice as the Union was rushed off their feet so unable to say much beyond that they would get a rep to contact me in the future.