I hope noone objects to me putting this post on here but I really need to unload. I qualified in 2011 and only completed 1 term of NQT last year on a part time contract but am due to start full time in September at a wonderful school near me. I am 42 and have just discovered I am 4 weeks pregnant and delighted and horrified. My husband and I had unprotected sex once and thought there was no chance ( ridiculous I know!!) due to my age, being overweight and diabetic - all the odds are against me. I Conceived the day before the interview. I want a second child (first has just turned 3) but this timing is the worst ever and I am now in a complete dilemma. I know legally the school has to honour the contract - but I feel so guilty and just don't know whether to go through with the pregnancy which is something I never thoughts woudl write in a million years - I am so conscientious about work, and I do not want my name to be mud either. But Yet I want this baby too - despite the fact we have just been through 3 years of financial hell due to me retraining and the prohibitive cost of child are. This is a complete headbanger.