Well it's the start of the 6 week holidays, a time of relaxation and sun- well for most anyway. I always struggle with this time of year; I don't want to feel this way, I really don't but every year I find myself counting down the days until September, counting down the days until I am someone again. I have been at my school for 4 years now, and love my job, during term time I never regret giving up my weekends and evenings to plan lessons, arrange and attend sporting events- after all it's for the children! Yet come this time of year I begin to regret the late nights and endless hours spent at weekends. Friends have drifted away due to me not being able to give up enough time for them- I barely have many left now, they have moved on, life isn't passing them by. The children that I teach have become the only constants in my life, watching them leave on Friday (they were Year 6s) was one of the hardest things I have done (I have taught them for 2 of my 4 years) and I cannot help but feel upset. I have been here before and have taken medication in the past for mild depression; I do not want to go down that route again. I know I need to 'get a life'- I want one. I lose interest in relationships quickly, they lose interest as a result. When I think rationally I know I need to gain some outside interests and make time for me, for as we speak I have a 6 week holiday, with nothing planned, whilst all of my 'old' friends are off jet setting the world. I come across as confident, assertive and am well liked in school amongst staff- we do socialise outside of school as well, but that is me hiding behind my teaching persona, as the real 'me' is lonely, bored and not looking forward to this mass expanse of 'free time' in front of him. Any advice would be amazing.